Monday, October 8, 2007

A mommy first

The first time a child of mine will go under anesthesia: tomorrow morning 7:15. Paige is having the tear duct in her left eye surgically opened. It's a very, very simple procedure but...well, you all know what comes after the but...

The hardest part will be the fury we will face tonight at 1 AM when she wakes up and wants to nurse, and I turn her away. She is going to be livid. I'm actually a little afraid of how angry she'll be. When that child wants her mama milk, she will scratch and claw and pinch and lunge for the mammary until she gets her way. Nursing: such a warm and bonding experience. Until they're old enough to draw blood.

The upside is that my own mama is spending the night tonight so she'll be there to take care of the boys tomorrow morning (we leave for the hospital at the crack of dawn). Because my parents live only 15 minutes away, they never stay with us. Our visits are always a couple of hours long, and then we all go back home. I think that's why my mom and I still adore each other's company so much--we never spend enough time together to grow irritated and resentful. Still, it'll be a treat to have her over to watch Heroes with.

This rambling post exposes my nerves, I fear. I'm sure I'll have a post in a day or two detailing the heart wrenchingness of watching your one year old being wheeled away into surgery alone, without you by the bed to give the doctor steely eyed "I dare you to screw up" looks.

She'll be fine. I know. But...

7 comments:

JMC said...

None of mine have been subject to surgery as of yet *knocking wood*, but two were hospitalized (one at 2 months old for bladder infection caused by reflux, and one at 4 months old for Kawasaki Disease), so I have an idea how you're feeling. It will be fine!

Aliki2006 said...

I hope it all goes well!

I remember being terrified of the "no nursing" rule before Tessa's surgery. It turned out not to be as bad as I expected (refusing her) but, then again, she was only a wee 6 months old.

I'll be thinking of you!

And...wasn't Heroes great?!

MadMad said...

Oh! I'm terrified for you! Though it's all over by now, and any minute you will be posting that it is over and well and no big deal... right? Any minute now... I'll be here, waiting...

Victoria said...

Hi there! (Found you via Aliki). I hope all went well.

slouching mom said...

I hope it went well, and that it's all over by now.

Ben had a tonsillectomy at five, and the anesthesia made him so loopy it actually frightened me.

How did the not nursing go?

Mean Mommy said...

It's all over and it was no big deal! :)

Truly, all was absolutely fine. The worst of it was her disorientation and crankiness coming off the anesthesia. She's slept nearly all day today, but otherwise she's just fine. Thanks for your well wishes!

MadMad said...

Oh, phew!